two weeks have passed in a blink. nothing has changed much, except i am checking my email inbox more frequent than i used to. times like this, it can be torturing. at the same time, it makes me think about what i wanna do next. what i really wanna do, is another question which is in less priority now.
they always say, dreams can't feed you and reality kills you faster than you can react to it. i don't have big dreams. or rather to say, i don't dare to dream big. big dreams only belongs to those who have the ultimate courage and determination to claim it. aside from that, born with a gold spoon in your mouth would definitely do a huge difference. not to finger point at someone but it is a well-known fact.
i have always wanted to become a fashion designer but i didn't make it. i was told that it is a risky industry to step in if you're not outstanding enough. therefore, i chose what i do now. during the four years of studies, i didn't feel lost. i always go with the flow, be as good as possible. getting good grades and submitting assignments on time were not that difficult. after graduated, i tried to find the right place to fit in. as i grow, things just don't seem how i imagined it when i was younger. i fell and i got up again. just when i thought i found a place that i wanna stick with for some time, it fell apart.
here i am, lost again.
i call this quarter life crisis.
25, i still have a long way to go.
